Maternal Musings

My Dearest Little Austin,

I spend so much time on this blog trying to recount all the funny, adorable, amazing things you do.  I want to capture these anecdotes so that our family can share in the miracle that you are.  I want to capture every little memory, milestone, and moment so that I can always revisit every step you take.

However, I think I've gotten so wrapped up in telling your story that I've forgotten to tell you mine.  At some point, you will read this blog and marvel at how silly and petty some of my posts are.  That's okay.  It's a mother's right to be amazed at every sound and motion that you make.  It's okay that I don't always remember that there have been other kids that were cute, that learned to feed themselves, and to talk, and to walk.  It's okay-and right- that I think you are the most perfect, amazing, wonderful child that God ever made.

However, what is most important is not what I think, but that you know that you are here for a purpose, a wonderful God ordained purpose.  You are learning to talk so you can talk to Him.  You are learning to walk so you can walk in the paths that He has chosen for you.  I thank God for creating you just the way that you are.  I wouldn't change one single thing about you.  You are so quick to smile and laugh and enjoy the moment.  You are so smart and obedient.  You are physically perfect and healthy and strong.  I pray every single day that God will protect you, and that you will love Him with all your heart and mind and soul.  And I beg God to give me the wisdom to raise you to be the man He has created you to be.

There is not a night that passes when I don't pray that God will post his angels at the four corners of your crib to watch over you while you sleep, that He will let you rest in his Holy embrace, and that He will place His hand over your heart to protect it and to claim it as His own.

I love you, my sweet child, deeply, completely, and forever.

Mommy